hmm... what to write?

i hung out with Dgroot last night, and he has now left for Thailand! but unfortunately, unless he can find another ticket, he'll have to come back in like 10 days, which sucks cause he wants to stay for 2 weeks and i think it's been a while since he's gone. so throw up a prayer for him that he'd find another ticket that'll allow him to stay longer and enjoy more time with his family.

So far, I've been in a bit of a funk. I think that leaving my life at Oxy and returning to my life at home has been a little difficult for me. I realized that I interact with my life at Oxy differently from my life at home. At Oxy, I found a comfortable way of interacting with all the things around me, from hanging out with friends to meeting new people to managing time for studying and etc. And I enjoyed it. However, at home, I find myself with a lot of spare time, I find myself being alone wayyyyyyy more often than I was alone at school (which was pretty much like never since I live in a triple.. the most alone time I had was when I was studying, and even then there were always friends in the library!), and I find myself surrounded by people I haven't been frequently interacting with. And that trips me up. But I'm slowly finding my way through that..

At first, I expected my relationships with people at home to be like my relationships with my close friends at Oxy. But they're not, and that kind of frustrated me, because I felt like I either needed to form deep relationships with people or just kinda drop them. The last few days, I've realized that, even though I don't talk about anything too deep or meaningful with my friends at home, I can still enjoy hanging out with them.

So, basically, this week, among other things, I've been thinking about my relationships with other people and how I treat them. I've been thinking alot about my relationships with people in my family too. I've been trying to face how I feel about people and thinking about how that affects how I treat people.

This is long and unspecific and perhaps uninteresting ha, but if you're interested in hearing more slash can relate, hit me up!

I hope my next few posts are more about telling you guys how much fun I've been having :).

Oh and yesterday I saw a movie called The Legend of 1900. It was pretty cool, but I don't know how I feel about the ending. Anyways, it leaves you with something like this: life is unlimited. there are so many choices you can make, so many different paths to take. each step, each decision, each action, is a choice among many. the main character of the film felt painfully overwhelmed by this infinitude of decisions and consequences. but this thought gave me hope and excitement - there's so much out there. and though it can be scary, it makes me really think about the decisions i make. and it makes me think about how i want god to be involved in the course of my life.

thanks for reading,
eric